I remember this being my mandatory tradition every year. Not attending, quite obviously. I was a dancer. Well. Realistically, dance was my life. I had no other passion as intense. And on top of the average of ten classes I’d attend every week, I dedicated my free time to Competition practice on Fridays and Nutcracker rehearsal on Saturdays. There was no other place I preferred to be. And somehow, with an insane amount of girls running around the studio, we managed to put together a performance for sold out shows every December.
These were the memorabilia that my mother thought was important. Rather than telling her daughters how proud she was. She kept every sheet of paper that proved we were part of the Academy. I guess its kind of cool for me now, because I certainly cannot remember all the roles I’ve performed over the years. I know I tried to do all of them, but I wasn’t involved young enough to do the mouse role, which both my sisters did a few times. That’s okay.. those fluffy jumpsuits would have been incredibly unflattering.
I miss all of this way too much. Besides mandatory grade school, dance was the biggest part of my life. Unforeseen circumstances stole that from me, and now I have no way of gaining back that sense of purpose. Everything feels lack luster nowadays. I have these memories, but its not the same. Can someone build a time machine?